Continuing on is what is my blog history..............

Yah, where did i stop? Yah, this blog started because of the GEP project i attended in Beijing. It's been a long year huh, I am in the army now, totally different from what i was doing 1 year ago in research labs learning all abt science, chemicals n etc. Army for me till now, as i repeat, it just sucks, the training and all. Anyway, i am now training to prepare ATEC in which is like fighting war in reality which means preparing for ops and mission. In doing so, that's what ns life is abt in the army, finishing ATEC, 3/4 of army life is abt this. Anyway,i gone through 2 field camps this dec, 1 live firing n another one coming this sat. So sick n sian of it already. Huh, this is the army n i am army personnel and this is my responsibility. Sian , sian................. My sort of long weekend ends tonite with me going back camp on a christmas nite, isn't it sad, spending christmas nite in camp, haha, aiyo, sucks!!!!! Anyway, my blog's first birthday n anniversary. Still a long way to ORD, 1 year n 6 months, aiya, aiyo, so, so sian... Besides that on my mind, another is back to the same thing again: it's all abt love. Sometimes, i think abt this topic and i start to worry, will i be alone for the rest of my life? Oh why, is it this question in my mind. The answer is obvious right. Let me tell those of you out there that don't know, it is because people around my age already having girlfriend or ex-girlfriends and till now i having none. Very, very the sad right? Anyway, something tells me, i need to some sort change my character towards the girls i like huh!!! Thinking abt this, makes me feel confused, cause i know this is hard for a person like me. And the question is how? HOW? HOW? When will my happiness come n the girl come to me? Sound so desperate huh!! Haha, actually it is so lol. It is the truth n it is burning in my heart for a very, very long time. Anyway, back to my blog, since i started 1 year ago, it shall celebrate more anniversaries like this and it will continue on and on, years after years, decades..... Happy 1st anniversary n birthday to you, My blog!!!! Looking forward to your 2nd birthday already!! Hurray!!! haha!!!

Thinking back..................

Ya, thinking back 1 year ago this time, i was in China, beijing, xiangshan doing attachment of lab work. I really miss those days lol, learning new things abt science each day n relaxing with the GEP group of mine. Thinking abt those days, this was how my blog which is yongchiang2006 started abt 1 year ago n before that was me getting back my internet acccount which i sign up for: singnet broadband. Looks like it is a history of this blog from the start even before i started going to china for my attachment, i started the blog first but till now most of the things in this blog started from the trip: the feelings, reactions, reflections n etc. All this started from the memorable GEP trip to China. This year for me as i entered the army is very different from school life. I guess i really hate army. Time is almost up, can't really explain much, going out soon to book in tonite. Explain more after 2 weeks, haha..........................

Pass out lol, holding the black beret, officially armour trooper lol!!

Pass out of trades course already yesterday where i became an armour trooper officially. The black beret looks nice on me. Anyway, it is not easy to get the black beret i guess, i come a long way, almost 6 months into army life already. And i still don't like it, but too bad it will be my career for the next 1 year 6 months i guess. Sucks man, aiyah! Passing out a bit different from the BMT passing out parade, with the armour vehicles drive pass, joy rides for parents n secondary weapons introductions to the parents that came. It seems a long day than the previous passing out parade. Anyway, today booking in again. Sucks right? It is a damn short weekend for me. Anyway, they still owe me 1 off day, still to be return, don't know when will i get it. See how then, army life continues for me, huh, sian!! Tough life starting in my NS life, how leh, still must continue lol! Will update again ok!!! Off again!!!

Trades course finishing, guess tough NS life starting soon!!

Next week confine because of live firing, first time live firing for me in the trades course, i will be firing a new weapon i learn few weeks ago. Anyway, trades course finishing means that i will be getting my black beret and this signifies i am a armour trooper and tough life will start as we will first embarked on section training as a infantry unit first before the armour vehicles come in, by then we will be training as the 'real' vocation i am really in which is armour infantry. Life will be different after trades course, it will be much more tougher as i expect. i already am expecting for the worse. I will be looking forward to the next book out which is the nite before deepvali which will be next month 7 nov 2007. Long week for me from tonite when i book in. Can only complain i guess, after it is the government's order for S'porean Men to serve 2 years of national service to the country. No choice, Sian, Sian and very sian lol. Update again next month, so long...........Bye!!!!!!!!

Going into 4th week of trades course......................

Learn a number of weapons in trades course already! The sucks thing in trades course is only SOC i guess. But anyway, army is like that i got nothing to say. Army life just sucks to me. Like learning extra weapons not in my scope as a gunner, getting scolded for small things as a company. Anyway, let's skip the army things as it might seem boring to some of you which are not in the army. It's almost 6 months since i graduated from ITE huh!!! Time really flies outside but not in camp. I guess the L.O.V.E part in me had not disappear in my heart. Still will think of her, looks like she's getting prettier. Still will look at her profile in friendster and look out for updates of her despite long time no see. Think she's doing good in whatever she's doing now and happy. I guess i still waiting for that someone. Sad huh!!!! In army, seems like more couples than people which am single. Harsh facts of life, always appearing right in front of me. Got nothing to say leh!!!

Going back camp lol, holiday ends, time really flies

It's time to return to my workplace which is the army where long working hours are found on training both physically n mentally. It just sucks. It is the last day of my long holiday and tomo marks the start of my trades course and a officially start of my army life cause BMT is just the basics. Hate to say abt the posting cause i should be staying in the same camp just that it will be a 5-day work week from next week meaning i will return home on friday night, looking forward to that. Time really flies esp. holidays. Looking forward to the next POP where i am supposed to have the black beret as my headdress: 15 nov 2007 is the date. Still long though that will be after trades course.Haha!!! Trying to look postive always in army, it is like so stressful. Sian, see how ba. After all, still must go back by the law. Sian, sian n sian!!!!!!

POP lol!!!!!!!!!!

Another few weeks had pass, i finally pass BMT phrase in the army. POP lol, it means i had completed BMT and successfully pass out. Anyway, i know it is the beginning of army life only, still a long way to ORD lol and getting back my pink IC. Sian as i know i should be continuing life in 40SAR in Keat hong which is like so far from my home in hougang. Pass out while staying in the same camp, so stupid, right? Anyway, this is the Army. Very high chances i will be staying as armour infantry and the next phrase of my army life will be the trades course where we will specialise in more different weapons or weapon systems. Trades course should be the same like BMT(sort of). Anyway, there's what i think with reference to what they say. Ok enough about army life, divert a bit, i just bought a NDS on the day of my POP, great games i like to play. Though i found out the NDS having problems with the touch screen. Then sunday went back to check with the shop i bought it from at AMK hub. Today got back the NDS, they say it is the calibration problems and fix it for me already. So i took it home happily and now it is charging cause low battery already. Another thing went to CMPB for x-ray on my spine early in the morning today. Reach abt 8.05am, finish around 9am, while leaving saw my platoonmate and he ask me to wait for him since we are going back camp also. Anyway, another hour passed, he finish his x-ray, the time then is 10am. We went to eat at the canteen over there before going back to camp to return the x-ray to the doctor(medical officer in army context). We took a cab back, spilt evenly $6, the trip. At the guard room of our camp, before going in, i saw the Doctor's car going out, he told me he's going for some appointment n will be back only at 2pm.The time then was only 11am, so he ask us to return on wed. I was like what the fuck, took cab to camp, just to go home from Lim Chu Kang. Sucks man, anyway this is what happen. Will update again before i enter the stupid camp of mine for trades course. Look forward guys, BYE!!!!!!!

Been a long time!!!!!!!

One month never blog already, didn't really had the time to do so or maybe ia m lazy to put it in simple terms. Anyway, tonite booking in early before 8pm. So far army life have been very sian for me. Since the start till now, going through PTP and now in BMT stage. Leaving at least i month left to finish my BMT. Though learn a lot of things but some through punishments and most of the time i just hate army life. Don't know for whatever reason. Anyway, that's all so far. Not much time for me to continue blogging. That's for now......BYE!!!

Decided that i still got things to write at this very moment

NS is upon me. In only a few hours, i will be enlisted in Armour division in Keat Hong camp in the army. For NS days and for me which is still single, i look forward to a whole new adventure and life in army. But for couples, it is time where relationship will face it's greatest test of it all as promises could be broken through time where break-ups are possible and a lot of endless possiblities might happen, where the girls will be lonely amd maybe look for other better guys. But for all my friends out there who are dating one another, i do hope couples will still stay as couples after the 2 years where their guys will be serving their NS from tomo for most of the cases. If not, at least the couples will be still friends or best friends. Certainly i hope it is a successfully test taken by them. Here by, i sent my greatest blessing and well-wishes to all of them out there. Really looking forward to it i guess, the camp, training, lectures and all the camp stuffs. It really brings wonderful memories for me. I know i will get a lot new experiences and brand new adventures and wonderful memories to keep in these 2 years of NS days. Ok to end, i thank those who sent their greetings to me and may everyone out there whether working or studying will obtain good results, happy working, happy serving NS. And once again thank you and take care and may everyone be in good health and prosperous. Good nite everyone and Bye! Wait for my next blog......................Haha!!!!

The time has come, starting a whole new lifestyle

The last blog to be posted before i get enlisted. Next blog will be next month already lol. So the day for enlistment has come which is tomo 15 june 2007. The wait is over for me, it is time to start a brand and whole new lifestyle which i am not familiar with. Anyway, i will get used to it eventually. Haha!! Luckily for me, had a short holiday in penang before this. This is a good break for me as i been working pretty hard at ikea tampines for the past month. Working is always so tired ah. Studying is always better and more relaxed. Anyway, looking forward to this day for enlistment for a long time already. This day will come sooner or later for us(the men) in Singapore. It has come for me now. Feeling nervous, a bit excited i guess but looking forward lah. Tonite is the last night at home sleeping before going camp to sleep for at least 2 weeks. Anyway, got a chance to visit my grandma yesterday along with my brother and some cousins. Long time since i visited her like since from mothers' day. This previous week had been packed for me with 7 june, the last day of work, then 8 june went out with my sec friends, 9 june to penang till 12 june, yesterday went to grandma's place and today to catch up and gather with my ite friends. Ok, this is so much for now!!!!Bye, see you guys next month!!!!

Been sometime, L.O.V.E life finally.......................

To start, i am busy with working for last month of may. So did not have much time to blog. Anyway, my L.O.V.E story in ITE. Actually for the first girl i admired was in a group of three. Yah she was the first girl i notice in my ITE life. Got to see her most of the time in the first semester. Need not explain so much as i don't know whether to put their names in this blog, better to be safe, so i decided not to include their names. If anyone think it is them, can ask me personally. Thank you! To continue on, the first semester was quite a bore for me as i sort of led a 'No-life' days. Anyway, the first semester mostly surrounded with girls or myself. I say this because whenever it is time to go home, the ones with me in the same bus stop is only my female classmates. The guys in my class either go to take the MRT route home or Bus 2 which is at the back of my school. I say also surrounded by myself also because in school i keep a lot to myself for the semester. Also kind of interesting first semester to descibe as going home time, my female classmates will also try to tease and make fun of me and of course try to talk to me. Yah anyway, didn't know them well, so didn't have much to talk to them. Anyway, i was quite alone in the first semester.When i look back at these days, actually i regretted a bit as these are actually the days where actually i can find a girlfriend and maybe started dating in ITE and for the first time in my life but this was not to be in the end. A bit too late to regret huh!! Anyway, it is already passed. HAHA!!!
Ok, back to the first girl that i look upon and admire. Yah as i describe got to see her most of the time. I can say she's the most pretty and cute girl that appeared in my ITE years. She is also very friendly. I think that's about all i can say, or else it will be very obvious already. The second one i can say the name as most of the people will know already. It is Nikki. This happened also in the first semester as she's most of the time teasing me and actually i am the type of guy which actually like girls who start talking to me when i don't know them at first.It gives me quite a good impression. Yah quite hard to explain but you guys should know. About Nikki, she change a lot from the first semester till the last in ITE. She used to be a person which is such of like me, being cheerful and happy-go-lucky. These are also some of the characteristics which i like to see in a girl, so that's why i ended up looking into her. But even since she got her boyfriend which is wei yeong, she change into a totally different person. I can say the changes are like from heaven to hell. You guys should know lah.
Ok, again we are moving off to the next person and the last girl i look into and love her till now. I can't seem to let go and still trying i guess. Abt this girl, i started liking her since that day. Remember that day was sometime in november 2005, we were in a group eating in C1 and talking after that, i remember if i am not wrong it is a friday afternoon after school. She ask me for my handphone number and when i ask about hers, she joke and say wait for her greeting SMS and when i ask her how to do i know it is her. She ask me when i received the greeting SMS, to reply to her and ask her. Ever since that day when we separated and went home after the small talk we had in the group, i been waiting and thinking when will i received the greeting SMS. After a few days, the greeting SMS actually came and i was so happy. Don't know for whatever reason. That day i mgs her quite a few SMS and sort of chatted with her. Slowly, i got to know that actually i like and love her. Although it is one-sided and i never actually ask her but actually i dropped hints along the way when i got time alone with her. Remember in the last semester which is the project and sometime in november 2006, i told her all the guys which like her before and till now. This hint is the most obvious which i gave and i think it is the last that i gave away before leaving for the GEP trip to Beijing. I now can say to her what i didn't tell her which is the last guy which like her which is me(Yong chiang). I am kinda of disappointed as i don't know whether she got the last hint which is damn obvious lol. I think i like her because of her bluriness sometimes which can also lead to the cute in her. She also have a straightforward character, something i quite admire too. As i say i still like and love her till now! How??? I don't know!!! Let time be the cure!!! HAHA!!!!!!!
Ok, the things i say above sort of concluded my L.O.V.E. life in ITE and also completed my last part of the story in the whole of my ITE life. Happy that i finally found time to finish what i started. Haha!!! Till the next update, bye guys!!!!!!!

Working For me has Started...........................

Now working had started for me since thursday when i reported for the Ikea job. Anyway, i am kind of lazy to type my L.O.V.E. life now as now i am working. Ok, On the first day of work, while working actually i saw ms natasha but did not acknowledge her because i was kind of busy serving the food to other customers. Anyway, that's a surprise on my first day of work. I was given one set of uniform only as some admin problems. Anyway, friday was a off day so i got to wash my uniform to prepare for work today. Today was my second day of work, still getting use to it, slowly but surely! My work for the cafe and restaurant for Ikea. My job is to serve food to the customers as they placed their orders with me. Ok, second day of work, another surprise as i saw velda and friend. Also saw Ms Tan kheng hua, mediacorp actress.Today was also a kind of busy day as it is a weekend. A bit tired although it is a 5 hour shift. Ya, my job requires me to stand all the time. The pay are weekdays:$5 , weekends: $5.50. The pay are quite reasonable and the staff i am working with are also friendly and easy to work with. After finish work, went to ask for my second set of uniform but to no avail. Anyway, forgot to sign out in the paper before going home. Never mind will write it tomo as i am working also. Guess will be working in the same set of uniform as i don't have any extra set. Whatever, anyway is not i don't want to change! Ya, that's my day!! Till then........

Birthday full of surprises!!!!!!

Before talking abt the final part of my ITE life which is the L.O.V.E , another great event which just happen is my 20th birthday on 18th of April. It is truly a birthday full of surprises i can say, with surprises from my friends and the army which is totally unexpected. Anyway, this is how the day started: I met ah kiong at woodlands checkpoint at abt 11am where we travelled with our passports to JB. We went to JB's City Square to watch a movie but were rushing for time as we needed to go back school to order the class photos that were taken, we needed to reach school at abt 3pm. So we decided to watch ninja turtles again as there were no other shows that could fit our timing. After the movie, it was already abt 1pm. We were already quite late actually, but anyway we had a quick lunch at 'Secret Recipe' in City Square itself. Then after lunch, we went to a comic shop also in the same place as ah kiong wanted to look at comics. Anyway, before that, he already mgs mdm ruhaida saying we would reach abt 4pm. So we left JB at abt 2pm and headed straight back to school. Along the way, back to school, i mgs Feng xian as she called me while i was watching the movie at that time. Found out she wanted to call me to wish me happy birthday personally. But anyway, thank her for her thoughtful thought. Reached school abt 3.50pm, where some of my classmates with mdm ruhaida and mr rashid were sitting in C1, they all sang birthday song to me. After that, we sat down and starting talking for a while, while ordering the photos. Anyway, Ah kiong and i left with Lyon and Jane in Lyon's car. Lyon then, send us and drop us at Tampines mall where we took a train to Vivocity, the next destination of my birthday celebration. Actually, ah kiong didn't told me abt meeting anyone at Vivocity but along the way,i could sense that there's someone we were meeting as ah kiong was like telling me to rush to Vivocity to buy tickets for the movie: Meet the Robinsons' in 3D. True enough, when we reach by MRT, we saw serene standing and waiting for us. Although this is supposed to be a surprise, but this first one was most not surprise surprise to me. Anyway, after that we went to buy the movie tickets where serene bought the tickets while he asked me to help him buy drinks from the nearby 7-eleven, after helping him buy, i went to the toilet and came out. When i came out, serene just finished buying the tickets. Anyway, she then went to the toilet. After that, the 3 of us went to the comic store at the top floor cause ah kiong wanted to look at comics and games. Then we went up and look around. Look and look, after a while, ah kiong then out of sudden ask me to look at a black pig which was at one of the top shelves. Anyway, i didn't find it weird at first but ah kiong suddenly laugh which make me felt a bit weird then. After that, i again walk around cause ah kiong was still looking around. Looking around, i saw Li jin which make me very, very surprised. I could not believe it and walk away to a corner. Ah kiong then led me to Li jin and told me she was waiting for me to talk to her. Then i went to look for Li jin and acknowledged her presence. Anyway, they then tell me Li jin actually came in the shop earlier than that. It is my poor observation that i did not realise. Actually earlier, the black pig which ah kiong wanted me to see, he was already hinting me. This second surprise make me very surprised and can be said as one of the jokes which is very funny and created together with them. As Lijin told me the previous nite, she was not going for my previous plan for the zoo during my birthday and say only she might be going out with calvin after he work. So i assume she was not coming for my birthday celebration. Anyway, very surprised to see her and happy too. So after we left the comics shop and went back to the movie threater to wait for the movie. While waiting, we were chatting at the seats there. Then when the time is almost up, i queued to buy cheesy hotdogs and nachos for them. While i was buying, the third surprise appear, guess who? It is the couple of Yiqi and Shun quan, never seen them for a while. A bit surprised!! But nevertheless i still think that the second surprise is the most surprising to me. So we went watching the movie( Meet the Robinsons in 3D) together. As it is a 3D movie, we were given free 3D glasses. Although it is a 3D movie, after the movie, most of us feel that the 3D images in the movie are not a lot. But 1 thing good abt the movie is the moral which is looking forward. It teaches us, no matter what happens, we must always look forward in life. I think this is very true as a lot of things will happen in life, good or bad, esp. the bad ones, we must always look forward and forget the regrets or bad things that already happened and continue moving forward. We must never allow ourselves to stay backwards as time passes and will not wait for anyone so we must always look forward and never be left behind.
Ok, back to the day! After the movie, we went to eat our dinner at vivocity's Kopitiam food court. After eating, we were chatting. During that time, my brother called me and brought me another surprise and the last surprise of my birthday which comes in a news of me enlisting into the army of Singapore armoured regiment( 40 SAR). I told all of my friends there and i could not believe it. The feelings were nervous,excited, lost. The feelings were mixed at that moment. Anyway, after that we were all chatting abt NS life and Ah kiong shared his jokes which he had witness and enjoyed in his NS days. We continued chatting a while more before leaving the food court at abt 11pm. Although it is a long day, But it is a birthday that i first thought to be a boring, but with surprises like that, i had a wonderful time. Thanks to the person who organised the whole day celebrations cum surprises which is ah kiong. Extremely grateful and special thanks to him for a well spent and wonderful birthday for me. Also the first person who wish me happy birthday. The next person is serene as she finish classes in poly before coming to vivocity to help celebrate my birthday for me and also for the movie ticket she paid for me and also for the time taken by her as she had school the next day too. Thank you, Big thanks to you too, serene! Besides thanking them, the others which are the surprises Lijin, Yiqi, Shun quan. Calvin also which could not make it to the movie and met us after the movie. Thanks for their company for a wonderful evening spent at vivocity. Also thanks to kelly, although she did not go to vivocity to meet us due to her poly's homework which she needed to rush. Also she's the second person who wish me happy birthday. Thanks to people who wish me using SMSes also. This will include some of the persons which i met at vivocity. Others are like hwei ling, wei ann, hui ping and my secondary school friends. Thank you to all. If i missed out anybody, you guys can leave comments and tell me. Anyway, i thank you guys also. Bye, Bye and Take care!!!!

Reflections for ITE years(part 2)

Continuing with the reflections for ITE years, i guess there's a need to reveal the people's name as it seems very obvious as told by some of my friends during the past 3 days of chalet. Ok, for the first term, the group i was with consists of ah kiong, shun quan, sing hua and me. Second term and third term, Ah kiong and me with the couple which is Li jin and Calvin. Close to the end of second term, it is Jane that join us. That happened till fourth term but Jane was the one that was following us 'on and off'. Ok, the fourth term, it is Ah kiong that left for HK GEP program, this is the most obvious as told by them during the chalet. Ok, the last group of people is my GEP Beijing people: Feng xian,Shao wen, Kelly and me. The last person who join my GEP group is Zhen wei. Ok, my LO throughout the IA period is Ms Angeline Lee.
After all the persons i revealed from part 1 of my reflections of ITE, it is time to continue on. Ok, in this part 2 of it, i will comment abt the whole course i been through in ITE and some of the people i didn't mention in part 1 of the reflections.
To start, some of the people who also play a part in my ITE years like Nikki, Denny, Hui ping, Hwei ling,Yiqi, isabel. For Nikki's part in my ITE life, i don't know how to describe but it is a long story which started with her teasing. As for Denny, he is the first friend i got to know in ITE. After i know abt his bad habits and his craziness over games, i slowly move away from him. In my class, he's a person which people know him for his bad habits and games. As for hui ping and hwei ling, i got to know them at the start with Li jin.They were the formly three sisters. As in the first term, after school, the three of them will always ask me to accompany them to shop in tampines, anyway it was always rejected by me as in the first term, i was busy working and isolated myself a lot due to working and studying. After Li jin got into a relationship with calvin, things were twist-and-turn and in the end, resulting in the split of the three sisters. There were also another group of three sisters consisting of Yiqi, Isabel and Jane. This group of three is also separated due to BGR, bitting, vengenace, revenge and etc. In summary, actually a lot of things happen in between of them. Also in the first term, they always tease me saying i very 'DAO', not answering them when they ask me things. The reason is i think they don't know me at the start so can't blame them. Anyway, if i ask them now, i doubt they will say i am 'DAO' anymore. Yah, about this two groups of sisters who were spilted, i can only say it is a sad thing. Anyway, it seems like they are all doing very good. I guess that's the good thing.
To summarise and end this reflections, the most important thing is to thank the people that make my ITE life colourful, the first group and the only person in this group, that will be ah kiong which makes the most changes in my ITE life and breaking my 'many first times' in a lot of things. Anyway, i can say that for his friends, he does really more for his friends than himself. He really makes a great friend. Ok, for the second group will be Li jin and calvin. Although i actually don't feel good with couples but with them around in my ITE years, my thinking slowly changes and it seems that couples can be good friends with people around them too. But i think till now, no other couples can follow what they are doing and get around with friends that way. And sometimes what Li jin say about herself, just makes me laugh and with her cold jokes. It just makes a good friend too. And for the next group and also only in this group is Jane, although she's on-and-off following us but she is another good friend to have as sometimes her bluriness just makes her very cute and funny. And this just make somes of the jokes around us. Ok, for the last group i would like to thank is my GEP Beijing group. As we spent 2 long months in Beijing for our attachment, i got to know Kelly,Feng Xian, Shao wen and Zhen wei. As this is the first long overseas trip for me, the memories with them will forever be kept in my mind.
Ok, once again, i would like to thank the following 5 groups of friends that i mentioned. These 5 groups of friends really are the highlights of my ITE life and make my ITE life really interesting and colourful. Thanks for all the good time shared between us. Besides them, i would also like to thank my classes in ITE, Class C and R, the students and my class advisor(Mdm Ruhaida).
This part of my life will be definitely treasured and remembered in my mind, really wonderful memories that will stay forever in my mind. Thanks and Thanks to everyone that had made this possible....................................THE END................................................

Lowest point of my life i guess!!!

Before continuing the ITE reflections part 2, Let's talk abt my feelings after the release of the poly posting results which i totally was unsucessful in. These few days i guess i had been trying very hard to cheer myself up. It seems like it is not easy to be happy sometimes. Anyway, since i came back from Beijing, things happened which already affected my mood, for people close to me i guess they should know ,the first matter i dealt with is the L.O.V.E matter which makes me down for some time already. As this matter i am still slowly trying to accept and move on, things are quite good, moving along the time of recovery. Ok, it looks good, right? As i say, moving along the time of recovery meaning not yet recovered, right? Anyway, my mood is still quite ok still and getting better before the release of the poly posting results. Now, after the release of the results, i guess my mood is down again because firstly, the first matter have not been actually solved and the results had become another matter serious enough for me to be actually very sad. I guess 2 matters added together had led me to think that till now in my life, i had come across another of the lowest point of my life. Because after the results, I have to end my education life at ITE itself, and as i say before if i cannot enter poly this year, i won't have anymore plans to study for at least 2 or 3 years. And maybe after NS, i might not even have time to go to poly and need to start working as my father is old already by that time and mother not working due to medical problems. As the elder son in the family, i have no choice but to help my father lesser his burden on his shoulders he carried for the last 20 years. That's why i say, it is now or never. Since it is fated that, i cannot go poly. I will need to try to accept this fact and move on with my life now. I am trying very hard to accept this fact this few days but to no avail.
It is because after a while, the failure of entering poly will come back and still affect my feelings, making me in no mood to do anything. How to stabilise this feelings? I also know, need to be positive and always look forward and not back. So this few days, i watch dramas actually to try and not to think abt it. But when you come to meals' time, you tend to think also. So till now, i guess i have not succeeded in accepting the fact that i am not able to enter poly. Thus, my mood is still down. About the L.O.V.E segment, i guess i can very much affects my mood little this days. In conclusion, i can say all these matters had led me to another lowest point in my life. Seriously, all these had make me really moody this few days. Aiyah, what to do? Just maybe to cope with it till i finally get an objective for these rest of the year which is maybe getting a part-time job. I guess now time is the main factor in recovery from these two major damages done to me. Hope that i will be happy soon and to be the cheerful guy that i am.

Reflections for ITE years(Part 1)

Ok, it is time to do a conclusion and summary on the 2 years in ite. I guess not really 2 years after minus out the holidays as i entered the course officially at 20th june 2005. Anyway, in year 1 of the course, for the first term, i was working and studying at the same time so actually didn't get to know friends in ite, though i have my group of friends in ite but we were not that close, just ordinary friends i guess. I think first term is sort of my 'no' life days in ite as i didn't really get to know my ite friends well and i was like a machine working and studying at the same time with rest time limited. Once second term starts, i decided to quit my job as i really felt it is too much for me to cope already. From then on, i guess my ite life around with friends really started. As that time, a lot of things happen like one of them leave for poly, another one left for a relationship as time goes by, leaving actually a group of four including me, to 2 of us in the end. For the second term, i got to know him as we went out a lot of times and share problems together. For this friend, he really change me and some of my thinking as well. Anyway, he broke a few of my first times, like singing songs, travelling to KL, eating sakae sushi and a lot more. Anyway, i guess i spent the most throughout my life in ite. Actually i have to admit all these spent is worthwhile as these are some of the things that bring us together as good friends. I can say it is the turning point of my ite life i guess and maybe including my whole life till now. So this friendship till now is still there, as i guess we really treasure it as the age gap between us is quite big and not easy for us to forge the bond. So this friend accompany throughout the second and third terms, we can say we went through quite a lot of good and bad times i guess. But in the middle of the second term, a couple joined the two of us and we were like a group since then and following that a girl joined too which were 5 of us as a group then. Anyway, these 5-person group lasted for the second and third terms and sometimes we will go out after school as a group to different places like bugis, suntec city, rivervale mall and etc. But sometimes the girl will not followed us, so sometimes it is only the 4 of us together but in sch eating lunch will be the 5 of us eating together. These are also some of the wonderful memories from the second and third terms. Ok, for the last term with QC and lifeskills only, my good friend went for the GEP program in Hong Kong from 14 oct-16dec for 2 months and my life in ite changes again. Anyway, he started his classes on the same day as us in singapore which is 16 oct 2006. Yah, i went back to school so i went back to the same group of friends except without him. Anyway, sometimes i am alone with the couple as the girl go join other groups for lunch. Anyway, in the last term, seems like passing so fast as there is only 6 weeks of studying before IA starts. During this term, my IA which is the GEP program had been discussed through the last few weeks of QC.For this, actually only 4 persons were in this program which is 3 girls and me. But due to some management problems, the course manager decided to get another person to join the Beijing GEP group. The last person that joined in is another guy because he is the only person that applied for the GEP program which was open up last minute by our course manager. So after the QC term finish, the GEP Beijing students started doing school project first for the first week of IA as we are going to Bejing to do our IA only from the second week of IA(4 Dec 2006). So actually before this, the project we were attached to had also been discuss during the QC term and we were co-leaders as appointed in the various school project. I was attached to the algae group for the first week of my IA. Then after that, from the second week onwards, we were in Beijing doing our 2 months of IA till 8 feb 2007. This 2 months story was told in my previous blogs posted so i needn't explain so much. Anyway, i learnt quite a bit out of the 2 months attachment in Beijing. After that, i return to singapore to continue my IA in the school project actually but we were told to do QC practicals and tests, besides that we still have to do our GEP presentations slides within the few remaining weeks of our IA so we didn't help out much in the school project. So the last month in the school project for our IA, we focus more on our assignments given by our LO. After this, i completed my studies already.
So the above, summarise most of the events that happened in my ITE life in College East(Simei).
For Part 2 of reflections ITE: i will summarise more on my thoughts of this course i been through.
Stay tuned!!!!!!

Last Official Day in School

Today is my last official day in school. Went to school as usual, met ah kiong, calvin and li jin in the morning as calvin wanted to have breakfast in school. I reached the earliest this morning, a surprise to me, anyway i reach at 7.25am, after that is ah kiong reaching at 7.35am, the lastest is Lijin and calvin reaching 4 buses after me which is around 8am which is due to this reason we did not have a proper breakfast and just grab a bite and bought a bread to eat before going up to the LT 5 for the session with ms lee, dr yeo, mr din talking abt the graduation. That talk finish at abt 10.15am. The program after that is the taking of photos of my class. We assembled at abt 11am and my class finished the photo-taking abt 11.40am. The order is S,P,R,Q. After that, our class had a sort of class photo where we throw our lab coats in the air. After that. we went to C1 where i sat down with Lijin and calvin, and waited for ah kiong as he talked to ms lee. I then had lunch before going up to observe our practical 16 results with my GEP group. As we waited for ms lee to finish talking to her class including Zhen wei, we decided to ask ms lee when will she be free to attend to us. Anyway, she ask us to find ms vini to read the results for us. After that, it is abt 2.30pm where we decided to take photos with ms lee and all the GEP students. The last thing i did in school is waiting for ah kiong after his brass presentation which started after the photo-taking with the GEP students. i waited for abt 2 hours until abt 5pm before his presentation finish and he came down to look for me. It is then we went to meet lijin and calvin in orchard. That's the last official day in school.

Views of my Blog...........

Oh, i found out today my blog is actually very popular and will get more popular cause jane and kelly just promoted it today in school. Esp. jane who had promoted it from the moment i reach school. I thank you a lot for your 'wonderful' help ah. Anyway, abt the love life i mentioned in this blog is private and confidential, so i guess only people i mentioned before will know abt it. Jane, the answer to your question and curiosity, it is for you to find out and for me to know. Guess maybe i will tell when the time is right, if the time is right!!! Or maybe you will not know at all.
Ok, back to school life for today. I was so bored thoughout the whole day doing nothing. Anyway, guess this whole week will be the same cause my project had stopped from last week and this week is the final week in school with me graduating very soon.

Graduating Soon in the final week now........

Principal's presentation set on the 15 march 2007, next thursday. Though finish the slides, the problem will be what to say. Anyway, my slides for the group will be mostly pictures and i guess need to think of the things i am going to say. Just be easy i guess, just that maybe will be nervous on that day of presentation. Anyway, that's school. School will be over after this day of presentation as all the things are done. After school is over, i guess i will be a wondering soul again. The next thing will be poly admissions i guess, first objective for me after ite. If sucessfully will be going to Singapore poly in april. If not, will be waiting for NS letter, to go in NS and start working after that. It's up to Fate now. I really hope that i will make it to poly. Sometimes wondering what is love, it been from secondary, failures all the while i guess. This year will be 20 years old already, now ite life is ending, love has never bloom for me, i guess it is a sad thing for me. My class in ite have the most couples of up to 5. So envy of the couples sometimes! Anyway, the recent couple seems to have met problems so early in the beginning. Actually, i am quite concerned over this. People should know the reason if good friends with me.
Should be happy or sad abt this problem between them? Anyway, thoughts of mine flying everywhere.
This is what i feel for this week, i guess all these will last quite some time. Esp. the love part i guess.

Another long time since updated........

Finally, formal presentation is over on monday 5th march. Quite relax a bit i guess. Our presentation sucks actually cause we were like so last minute with no team spirit entering to the place of presentation. Our lack of team spirit and work were so obvious as told by one of my teachers in our presentation. Anyway, modifying our presentation slides for the principal. Today just finish doing the slides BUT i still feel like the presentation we can still do better. Anyway, not thinking too much, at least it is done i guess. I don't pinned any high hopes already. Ok, love in ite is over for me. It is time for me to leave things as usual now. Though disappointed, life's goes on. Don't know when will i get over. Anyway, things should get better as i am graduating soon in another 1 week. Let's see how the future of my love life will be, when will my fate come?
Ok, till then!!!!