It's been quite some time as my last sem in singapore polytechnic had started, now i am left with the last term which is about 3 more months left before i graduate and earn myself a diploma in food science and technology. It still remains unsure whether i will be studying after that, as i had yet to decide. Anyway, will be making my decision soon enough i hope.
Poly life was quite a normal life for me i guess except when i was struggling a bit when i was in my first year in poly. Nevertheless, time flies and i will be graduating soon. Poly life was the same and my status throughout my whole life is still the same: 'SINGLE'. I guess i am still waiting for that miracle to come along some way or another. I had hope from year 1 in poly life, i would abandoned the current status that i had which is being single. Anyway, disappointments again! Never mind i guess, i am quite used to it. At some point, hopes sort of began hopeless after time.
Now in year 3 of my poly life, my poly group of friends are either in a relationship or going into one, unlike me who is always alone. Now in the discussion, it seems like i am always out of the topic and hearing more of things about love which i don really like to hear about at some point. Maybe i am jealous of them or more of envy, i guess i really don know. Anyway, i hope to graduate really soon as sometimes seeing and hearing about their love stories are really saddening for me.
Enough of the sad stuffs i had i guess. Lucky for me, i am never alone, i have groups of friends which most are still single and being together with them just really let me feel great and happy. Therefore, it somehow let me think of the good things of being SINGLE. Haha! I guess i am who i am and it is hard to change my character as those that are close to me will know that when i like a girl and i don really know how to express it openly to the person. So this is one big flaw which i have and which makes me SINGLE all the way till now. Eager to start a relationship but............
Anyway, last thing i need to mention and the most important will be the passing of my mum, it been a year since my mother left our family peacefully into another world to be free of any troubles, stress and health issues. Recently i just prayed my mum along with my brother and father. Although she had left us, i know she will forever live in our hearts and minds. She will be watching over us and blessing us in whatever we do. In my memory, she always love me the most and adore me the most all the way until she pass on. She's the world's greatest mother to me and all the things she done for will always be remembered deep in my heart. Hope she doing well and good wherever she may be and I just want to say and shout it out I MISS U and LOVE U MUM!!!!!
