I guess memories of my mother is flowing around, guess i am glad that the whole family especially my grandma remembers her the most. Now that she's not around anymore, i can see that grandma had lost a soul mate which can accompany her out to different places and actually talk to her almost everyday, always around with her. I guess memories of her flow throughout all my family members' mind. Whenever i went to visit my grandma, somehow, there will be something about my beloved mother. And sometimes this brings me to great memories of her in my mind, somehow it also makes me sad that she's not around anymore. Guess this is how you will when a loved one is not around.
Today, father and brother went to bangkok with the rest of my other family members leaving me alone at home for these 4 days. Anyway, tonite had dinner with buying fruits for praying tomo and keeping the dried clothes all alone. First time so lonely and kind of sad being alone. Anyway, this is the first time in my life, i am alone at home lol. Anyway, hope to get by these few days quickly. While eating dinner, the fish store auntie also notice and asked where is my mother. When she asked for the first time, i sort of stumbled a bit as i didn't know how to answer. In the end, i guess she say is she at home and i sort of agreed and end the conversation. At the point, memories of her appeared in my mind and i know i always love my mother for all the things she did for me. Kind of a sad nite i guess!!!
Loneliness is one thing i hate the most. However, we will eventually have to get by it.
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